80% done!

I'm about 80% done with packing. I was hoping to get everything done by Friday. That means packing, packing shipping boxes, packing husband's stuff and cleaning all the rooms. But letsbereal, that didn't happen. Not even close. On the upside, I'm way ahead than I was the last time we left so yay for that? I've pretty much got all my clothes packed except for the extra hoodies and jeans that'll go in husband's luggage and I got most of my makeup packed too (thank goodness!) I just have a bit more sorting/donating/selling and cleaning to get done. I don't even want to think about cleaning my car. Oyee.  

My blogging has been suffering a bit since I've been running around either doing errands during the day or packing/sorting/cleaning at night. I haven't slept til 3 or 4am this whole week from being busy. The downside to all of this is my OCD isn't really acting up too badly but my hands are wayyy dried out. They were PAINFUL last night from how dry they were from touching everything from plastic to cloth to dusty things. Omgosh. I had to run cold water on them and I attempted to put on some heavy hand cream but they just stung so badly I had to just sit and cry for a little bit. 

I obviously will not miss this dry air in California. 

That's not to say that I'm not nervous about moving. Because I am. I wonder if it ever gets easier. But I guess when it comes down to leaving a place of comfort it probably never gets easier. Especially when you're going somewhere for a long period of time that'll take awhile to build comfort.  

If I can just get these last few things done then I can spend the rest of the days before the trip relaxing and with my kitties. Back to work I go!

OMG I'm exhausted!

• Less than 4 days left of work :( :( :(
• Last closing shift was last night
• Last shift with my buddy Justin :(
• Went a bit shopping at Marketplace (for probably the last time *super sad face*) before work
• I'm not a fan of the way Goofy's packages their caramel apples
• If Disney wants to work on consistency they should try with that, just sayin
• Got caught in a STORM. Tried to beat it to the break room and ended up having to take cover at Curl
• Worked an 8hr shift with soaked socks, not fun
• Didn't ROS for once cause Justin told me not to lol
• Spent my whole second break talking to Nick (from Nick's Place), gonna miss him a ton
• I'm nowhere near done packing yet, eep!!!
• So excited for my vacay when I get back to the west coast
• Not ready for this experience to end yet
• My sickness is finally going away, it kinda feels like that right-before-Christmas cold. Mmm.
• Mid shift today and opening tomorrow, the hell?
• Did I mention I'm exhausted?
• Had Micky D's with Amanda, husband and Justin last night. They had a bunch of new stuff on the menu. I feel so deprived.
• I'm gonna kinda miss everything about Orlando...

So my program is coming to an end and I'm half relieved and half bummed out. I didn't get to do everything I wanted to do while I was here. I know it's a bit hard to believe since I was here for 7 months but trust me, you'll run out of time! I'm going to miss Disney World, I'm going to miss my friends, my leaders, my coordinators. Now I have to go back to my boring life back in California. I might come back, maybe do the alumni program. But I do need a break away from Disney! It's been fun Orlando, you've changed my life. For good <3.

5 weeks left...

I can't believe my program is already coming to an end, it feels like I literally just got here. I have a little less than five weeks left of work and as of today, five weeks left in Orlando. 

I was on the bus ride home from Port Orleans last night (only took me 6 months to finally visit that resort) and it hit me, how sad I'm going to be when I close the door to my apartment one last time. How sad I'm going to be on the flight back home and how sad I'm going to be when I'm sitting in my own room across the country from my friends and from Walt Disney World.

This program has literally changed my life. These people have changed my life. These experiences, memories and struggles, have changed my life. This has been one of the most amazing experiences of my life and I'm so happy that I did go through with it. 

I'm hoping to catch up on some blogging on Monday since I'm off and it's 4th of July. I'm debating on where to go since I'm trying to avoid the parks, I'm sure they will be packed beyond packed so I'm not even going to bother! I'll probably get a cupcake and dine at the Polynesian resort!

I seriously can not imagine my life without Magic Kingdom, Candy Cauldron, pin trading and buying choco covered marshmallows whenever I want :(

Defeated.

I haven't been home sick since I got here, but I feel like I'm on home sick overload tonight.

I wish it was 12:12AM right now instead of 3:12AM. I'm kicking myself because I'm still awake and I know I'll be tired at work tomorrow just like I was yesterday for sleeping late the night before. I burned the last Chicken Noodle Soup and we're almost out of rice because I fell asleep while I was cooking. It shouldn't be a big deal, at least I didn't set off the smoke detector or anything but I don't know. I'm just so tired and achy and we don't have time to get more soup until next week. I hope we get my parent's package today.

The apartment smells like burning and I'm so sad.

I miss the feeling of the carpet in my room between my toes. I miss the fluffyness of my own bed. I miss my furbabies so much. I miss my car. I miss being able to go to Target whenever I wanted (I don't even know where Target is here and yes it's causing a bit of an anxiety problem). I miss SunValley Mall. I miss going to UoP every Monday night. I miss routine. I miss my parents. 

I love it here, but tonight I just really really miss home.

Living on my own is so hard. I'm doing a lot better than I thought I would, makes me realize how spoiled I was at home. Everything so much harder without a car and by yourself.

Husband had a bowl or Ramen waiting for me on the bed when I got out of the shower. But I'm too sad to eat. At least our hot water is back on. 

I have another 6AM shift this weekend and I'm really not looking forward to it. It takes me an hour to get home from work and I have to get up 3 hours before my shift to make it there on time because the bus doesn't run that early so I have to take a shuttle. Last weekend I only got 2 hours of sleep. This isn't fair. I'm not like everyone else with a damn car. Do they put that into consideration?

I need to sleep. Somehow.