Defeated.

I haven't been home sick since I got here, but I feel like I'm on home sick overload tonight.

I wish it was 12:12AM right now instead of 3:12AM. I'm kicking myself because I'm still awake and I know I'll be tired at work tomorrow just like I was yesterday for sleeping late the night before. I burned the last Chicken Noodle Soup and we're almost out of rice because I fell asleep while I was cooking. It shouldn't be a big deal, at least I didn't set off the smoke detector or anything but I don't know. I'm just so tired and achy and we don't have time to get more soup until next week. I hope we get my parent's package today.

The apartment smells like burning and I'm so sad.

I miss the feeling of the carpet in my room between my toes. I miss the fluffyness of my own bed. I miss my furbabies so much. I miss my car. I miss being able to go to Target whenever I wanted (I don't even know where Target is here and yes it's causing a bit of an anxiety problem). I miss SunValley Mall. I miss going to UoP every Monday night. I miss routine. I miss my parents. 

I love it here, but tonight I just really really miss home.

Living on my own is so hard. I'm doing a lot better than I thought I would, makes me realize how spoiled I was at home. Everything so much harder without a car and by yourself.

Husband had a bowl or Ramen waiting for me on the bed when I got out of the shower. But I'm too sad to eat. At least our hot water is back on. 

I have another 6AM shift this weekend and I'm really not looking forward to it. It takes me an hour to get home from work and I have to get up 3 hours before my shift to make it there on time because the bus doesn't run that early so I have to take a shuttle. Last weekend I only got 2 hours of sleep. This isn't fair. I'm not like everyone else with a damn car. Do they put that into consideration?

I need to sleep. Somehow.

35 Days left...

It's now December and I have less than 60 days left. Still haven't packed. I guess I don't really want to because I don't really want to admit I'm leaving home. Sounds silly right? I have this amazing chance to live my dream job and I'm here, homesick. I'm a little envious of my husband at the moment. He's beyond excited, he's not homesick... but then again this time last year he was coming home from Basic Training and I guess anything is better than Basic Training...

I made a list of things I'm going to have to buy and pack. Well the packing list was a rough outline, I'm going to have to think about it a little more, I have a habit of over packing and when you're flying, that probably is not the best idea. From what I hear there isn't a Target nearby so I'm gonna have to stock up on my Target only holy grail products and bring those with me. You never realize how much useless crap you have until you have to move. Isn't that weird? 

I can't believe how close we are to Christmas! I mailed off one of my two Secret Santa packages yesterday (in some in the middle of NOWHERE post office. Seriously, the mailing office was the smallest I've ever seen and there was only one employee!) and I'm going to mail the second one before class next week. I finally found mini Lotso bears at the Disney Store! Thaaaank goodness! The one I bought my Secret Santa didn't smell like strawberries. So my husband was on the search for one that smells like strawberry. He's cute when he's determined over something that isn't his problem! And since Disney Store right now has buy one get one free plushies, I got a mini strawberry Lotso for myself. I didn't like his character, but man he smells good! I wanted a medium The Clawwww alien plushie but husband decided it would be better if I waited til we get to Florida and that I'm cuddling with Cheshire on the plane. Period. Hmph, fine.

I've been having plane nightmares. See, normal people have nightmares that the plane is going to crash. I get nightmares that I'll forget my Earplane ear plugs. Yes, it's true. That's my worst flying fear. I get insane pain in my ears when the plane lands. Like OMG-MY-EARS-ARE-BLEEDING pain. I think it has to do with a damage tissue in my nostril that I never got fixed... well, I'm paying for it now! My mom tried giving me regular ear plugs and they worked, it's just hard to tell how to get them in your ears. So I looked it up last year, before I had to go fly to Texas for my husband's Basic Training graduation. See, flying with my husband is fine, he knows I get these pains and he usually squeezes the crap out of my ears and lets me dig my nails into his arm. But I was going to fly with my sister in law who has no idea. And I discovered Earplane which is an ear plug designed especially for my reason. Tried it out on the way to Vegas, worked great! I also read the Suddefed is suppose to help too, to help clear up any nasal problems. I'll try that too (wish I had earlier to see if it works).

So other than all that, trying to figure out how to pack everything comfortably and how to pack things away in my room are a priority. On the upside, two more weeks of classes and I'm free! So I'll have more time to focus on packing and getting my paperwork together.

We're almost there guys!

Shopping!

I saw a thread on the Facebook fan page about places to shop in Florida. I didn't put much thought into it since I'm excited to just be at Disney World. But curiosity got the best of me and I Yelp'ed the places people mentioned. And OHMYGOSH! The Prime Outlets? GORGOUES! The malls are pretty too and one has a Panera Bread inside the mall. Seriously, I was freaking out for hours going over the list of stores and just staring lol. Not to mention both outlets have a CCO (Cosmetics Company Outlet - an outlet owned by Estee Lauder which owns MAC so there's a bunch of discontinued discounted MAC stuff there. My favorite outlet store)!

I know not a lot of shopping will be done, but I absolutely love shopping and I love visiting new malls. I have no idea why, it's just a silly hobby of mine. I get it from my mama actually haha. 

I was getting home sick last night (I always get "home sick" at night) and my husband was trying to get me to cheer up and he's the sweetest thing ever. He was like saying all sorts of sweet things and giving me lots of hugs. He's amazing :).

I was also looking up plane tickets. Orignally I had wanted to take Virgin Airlines since I haven't taken them yet and my friends always talk about how awesome their experience was but they only have one nonstop flight to Orlando and it's nine hours long (not to mention almost $300 a ticket). While SouthWest (I hate taking SouthWest, it's always so cramped) has one stop and we'll get there in five hours (and the tickets are only $170). I don't know what to do. Florida is going to be a very long flight. I'm hoping that Virigin opens up more flights for that day when it gets closer but that's probably just wishful thinking :(.